Mumbled Mess

The sunshine’s another day through the remaining grey clouds from the storm the night before. So fitting is the mood for the day. Descriptions through words could not do justice to the feelings of the heart. The absence of what once was will never be filled. We give pieces of us to everyone we love not expecting to ever feel such a loss when they choose to leave. Caring is painful. Take a moment to reflect on different people that you have loved and the pain that was involved. Can you thing of a situation when there was no pain in loving. Even a parent feels the pain when their child grows to no longer depend on them. OF course we will always need our parents but the feeling of loss for them is still great. Think of that loved one that passed without a goodbye. Think of a friend that drifted apart. Think of an ex-boyfriend/husband or ex-girlfriend/wife. Do you get the point?? Please challenge this rational line of thinking. Keep in mind everything referred to are relationships of the Human kind not the spiritual kind. IF you are a believer in anything spiritual this is not that debate. Caring or Love is painful. So why do we love one another if we are aware that with this feeling and responsibility comes pain. We do so because caring is what makes us feel alive. Love is a reminder of mortality. Through the ages we have longed as a species to be remembered. If you live what is the point without leaving an impression on those you meet. Loving is the impression some of us choose to leave. So to all those reading I Love You. I may not agree with the choices you make in life. I may not have handled situations between us the corrected way but I promise every action was a reaction. I am humbled by the silence that many have elected to show me in life. For those that have made the choice to keep me in check in life I would like to say thank you. Remember me for being the person that would give the shirt off his back and his last dollar if it meant making sure someone he cared about could benefit from that shirt or that dollar. I am not flawed in caring I am flawed by caring about others more then myself. Choices I make in life seem selfish at times but when you look at the bigger picture and from my perspective I have always made the choice to help those that needed help. I have neglected many people in my life but most of all I have neglected my own self. So non specific is this post and so cryptic it would seem but please as a reader don’t overthink. I am unable to actually see who reads my post so please do me a favor and don’t ask me what this post is about or if this post is about you. If you feel like this post relates to you at all it probably does and if you read and think what a nut job he is then you didn’t get it and that is okay. Below are a few of my favorite quotes so enjoy and thank you for reading.

It’s never about being good enough for someone. That’s not your choice to make they made that for you when they choose you. Don’t strive to be good enough, strive to be the best you that you can be…

Never lose yourself while trying to hold onto someone who doesn’t care about losing you…

I’m always going to love you, and I’m going to hate me for not being enough…

The more you love, the more you suffer…

The greatest gift one can give is their love. That love picks you up when your down. That love that protects you. That love shows no limitations. That love that nobody really deserves. Not that what have you done lately. Not that I am passing through again love. Not that temporary love….

Beware of destination addiction: The idea that happiness is in the next place, the next job or even the next partner. Until you give up the idea that happiness is somewhere else, it will never be where you are…

If you’re allowing it then don’t complain about it. You deserve exactly what you settle for…

 

 

 

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