Through pain we gain the knowledge to know what can make us stronger. Through pain we gain the knowledge to know what we can endure. Through pain we gain the knowledge to grow and build ourselves up…

-Christopher Zarate

To my knowledge no one can learn from always being right. It’s through our mistakes in life and our failures that give us true wisdom. We can learn so much more about ourselves then we can through others. When we wake up in the morning the first thought is always our own before we even begin the day of interaction with others. Our days start and end in our own minds. Love yourself enough to listen to yourself. Drowned out the noise of others. Tell yourself I love you today and make the day your own.

Personal Message

This is a rarity that I post anything so personal but I’d like to share my thoughts for a moment.

My dad is currently going through a separation after 38 years of marriage and knowing my mom for 45 years. It’s extremely hard on him trying to figure out finances and just figuring out where he stands in life right now. My dad and I are not the closest. He spent my childhood high on weed and cocaine. He is an alcoholic and has been sober for the better part of at least 8 years. When my mom left him I was very concerned he would revert and relapse and I am proud to say he hasn’t. The strength he is showing is amazing even st his weakest. I admire the will power he has shown. Big ups to my dad.

I had battled with alcoholism in my 20’s. If I am being honest I enjoy a good drink. I have smoked weed off and on my entire life. I know when enough is enough and I try and instill a little of my experiences with the people that come in my life even if for a moment. I have risk losing everything I have obtained in life thus far to help those I care about. I have learned a valuable lesson from my dad and through experience and that’s you can’t help anyone that doesn’t want help. You can spend time, money and offer all the support in the world but like my dad told me “if I wanted to stop I could have, I didn’t want to though I wanted what I wanted”. That couldn’t be more true. For those of you that have had friends that struggle with dependency issue just know there truly is nothing you can do. The choice will always remain that individuals. What you can do is offer your support (not financially) be there during the lows and praise the highs. But be prepared for the ups and downs. It’s a choice and the choice isn’t yours to make for the ones you love, it’s theirs.

To all my past,current and future friends just know you have the choice and it’s yours to make not mine. To all the young readers still in school or college I know it seems like it’s not a big deal and your young but the choices you make while your young impact every part of your future. Going back to the instilling part. Knowledge from other people’s perspectives can sometimes help you figure out the path maybe you should choose. Like I always say “you do you” but remember problems don’t go away they compile.

To everyone reading I may not know you personally but I love you. And for those reading that know me personally you know how I feel about you and if you don’t I love you!

Christopher Zarate

Thanks for reading!

Courtesies are what they are courtesies

When courtesies are taken advantage of and turned to be expected that becomes an issue

How quickly one can go from courteous to expected

The irony is when courtesies turn to expectations but those same expectations that were once courtesies are not reciprocated in return.

Simplistically I say don’t expect from someone something then turn around as if the expectations should be any different from yourself.

Yes to dumb it down even further follow the golden rule!


Reflections is a must sometimes and can hurt like a “B”

I encourage anyone reading to actually self reflect and attempt to be open to the perspectives of others. Play devils advocate on yourself. Of course you will fail at being unbiased toward your own opinion but if even for a moment you can catch a glimpse of a new perspective you will have succeeded. Don’t worry everyone thinks they are right at least 90% of the time but just try and shed some light on the other 10%. Don’t change who you are but evolve who you are by opening your mind. Trust me I am still a dick but I am more self aware then I ever used to be.


I welcome you because I don’t yet know you

You’re a stranger in a world where I don’t believe in strangers

For so long I feared you


I have known life

The pain life can cause

The way people take for granted the air they breathe

The hatred

The lies

The betrayal

All part of life

I have known life but have not feared what I know so why should I fear what I don’t know

I welcome you

I am curious what your embrace feels like

Is it cold like many believe or is warm like new life

Are you feared purely because of the unknown

We will meet one day no longer strangers and I will welcome you as I have life

If we don’t agree can I return to the living?

We will talk

Not to soon please but soon enough

Maybe your cousin sleep will have some answers

We don’t spend much time together but maybe I should ask about you

I don’t fear you anymore even though you’re welcome anytime let’s not plan on anything concrete just yet


Center yourself…

Allowing ourselves to conform too the people around us for the sake of happiness is not happiness. Being an individual can be very lonely sometimes. The feeling of nobody around can be overwhelming and lead us back to situations that take us back to conforming for the sake of feeling happy. False happiness. We have to first learn to be alone in order to find true happiness. To find ourselves is the most important piece of advise anyone could have ever given me. To speak personally I don’t think I ever truly found myself but I found a way to be alone through art, through reading, through writing and through choosing to not conform. Don’t judge others for the short comings they feel like that have but embrace them for the individual that they are. Let them know they are not alone. Don’t be the friend that’s just around for the party but the friend that is there when the party isn’t around. See you on the journey of life. Everyone can learn something from anyone but we can’t learn about ourselves through others. Be an individual. Find yourself in the universe and make others smile.

The day fades to night with the incandescent glow of our sun giving way to pale glow of our moon

What will have become of the day

What will come of the another cool night




The dawn breaks the silence of the cold night with the once again warming of the light

A new day

The same day

Another day





I can accept failure but what I can not accept is the failure to try.

We all fail at something during our journey. These failures make up who we become and define how we move forward.

When we make the choice to give up trying at anything we choose not to move forward.

Sure there are circumstances that are futile. But damn it if there is anyway for success it will only come from trying.

Keep trying. Reinvent the wheel. All of man kind from the beginning was built on failure but most importantly all of man kind was built on the continuation of trying.




Being is never enough.

Leave well enough alone…

Why not try to improve?

So many reasons just to exist but so many more reasons to live.

Don’t just connect with people

Impact peoples lives

Allowing there to be versions of you is a misrepresentation of who you really are

Be You




Try hard to do or achieve something


An attempt to achieve a goal

-Earnest and industrious effort, especially when sustained over a period of time

Will you ever know the true results of your endeavors? I am not so sure that you will. It is my belief that we so are so fluid that there is never really an end to what we seek out to accomplish. A goal in life could be simple in thought but when pursued turns so complex that it evolves from its original idea. Good luck on your endeavors this new year. Stay fluid and evolve and don’t be discouraged by change. Embrace complexity and admire simplicity.


You were able to take the money when it benefitted you most

The time was easy to pass cause one day I’d be a ghost

You took the years that could have meant more to someone who really cared

All the while your excuse was you were scared

You broke me down in ways unknown to most

Placing blame on me to help justify your lack of remorse

Pulling strings like a puppet master knowing I’ll always be close

Reaching out like a convenience when it suits you the most

Well wishes at best but nothing from the heart

Who is the real monster when you knew everything from the start

The price we pay for loving is always a broken heart